I'm failing

No, my grades aren't bad (not yet). I'm failing to keep up with my course work in both classes. It’s not for lack of trying though. I can’t find enough hours in the week to get everything done. I am falling farther and farther behind. I’m losing sleep, spending less time with Chloe and Salve, and becoming less productive at work. I’m unable to help Salve around the house with more than an occasional meal either. I did mow the lawn last week, but only because no one else can. It also gave me a much needed break from the frustration of spending an entire weekend doing homework (only to still not catch up).

Although there are only two more weeks of statistics, I don’t think I’ll be able to recover in the C++ class. All the first-half assignments are due the Monday following my statistics final exam and there is a mid-term exam the day after that. It’s everything I can do to keep up with statistics and try to still get “some” of the C++ done. I don’t know enough C++ and I’ve forgotten too much of what I did know. I’m trying to re-learn it while taking the class and it is just not happening quickly enough. There is no possible way for me to get all the assignments done and study for the mid-term in one weekend. At this point I’m looking at dropping out of the class (without grade penalty). I hate that option, but it’s better than a bad grade.

The class is not offered through distance education in the fall term, so I don’t know what I will be doing. There are other classes I can take, so perhaps I can keep trudging forward in hopes of not becoming completely discouraged. The hard part is that I don’t have any clear indication of the upcoming distance education course offerings. Typically they are on a set schedule that I can never hope to keep up with as a part-time student. Many of my remaining courses require my current C++ course as a pre-requisite and that makes the decision even more difficult. Maybe I can spend the second half of the summer re-learning basic C++.

At times it seems it will never end.